I'm sorry I didn't contact you until now, I was, I wanted to? I just didn't know how but that doesn't mean I blame you, you know, because I don't and I just, it's just been...
[He trails off awkwardly. It's just been Nicole turning into a bird creature and chasing him and Peter turning into a weird... planet-boulder of death chasing him and suffering from radiation poisoning and having a finger severed and getting sucked into John's dreams and bombarded with horrible memories he can't seem to shake and John getting shot in front of him and Wilson laughing at him in that bloody torture basement and...]
It's all right. I'd understand if you didn't want me to contact you again, pinky swear or no pinky swear. [ He lets out a long sigh. ] I crossed a line, whether or not I was aware of it at the time.
[ He doesn't know half of what Flynn's been through recently, but he's quite sure that his flipout to the dark side or whatever it was must not have helped. ]
Are things a little better now, at least? I mean, as good as they can be around here.
Soo... does that mean we're going to talk about it? Do you want to talk about it? I mean, we probably should. Do the talk thing.
[That's what you normally do in these situations, right? That would probably a thing you should do after, admittedly, the world's most pathetic scalpel vs. knife fight.]
I think so too, but for something that's just a memory, it feels incredibly vivid. I- remember threatening you and saying all kinds of things that I never would have said normally.
I mean, I feel like maybe I could have said or done something differently and then... You had snapped out of it and I feel like maybe I could have prevented you from slipping back under their influence if I had just, I don't know.
[It's stupid because it didn't even happen, not really, but still Flynn feels like he failed Wilson somehow.]
I was threatening to kill you. Or at least hurt you.
[ All of that was justified in his opinion. ]
People don't usually try to help the person attempting to hurt them.
[ Unless they have a death wish, which he thinks Flynn doesn't. ]
I- I don't think I did. Somehow, no one caught on to what was going on. [ He's not sure how, because they were doing things that should have drawn a lot of attention. ]
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I'm sorry I didn't contact you until now, I was, I wanted to? I just didn't know how but that doesn't mean I blame you, you know, because I don't and I just, it's just been...
[He trails off awkwardly. It's just been Nicole turning into a bird creature and chasing him and Peter turning into a weird... planet-boulder of death chasing him and suffering from radiation poisoning and having a finger severed and getting sucked into John's dreams and bombarded with horrible memories he can't seem to shake and John getting shot in front of him and Wilson laughing at him in that bloody torture basement and...]
It's just been a lot.
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[ He doesn't know half of what Flynn's been through recently, but he's quite sure that his flipout to the dark side or whatever it was must not have helped. ]
Are things a little better now, at least? I mean, as good as they can be around here.
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[Wilson's question gives Flynn pause. How are things? He briefly touches his lips and can't help the smile slipping into his voice.]
Things are... yeah. Things are a lot better.
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[ He can't suppress a shudder at the recollection of what he was willing to do under the Prophet's influence. ]
Are they? Well, that's good, at least. There's not much about this place that's good, so I'd just take what you can get.
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[A very nice change.]
Soo... does that mean we're going to talk about it? Do you want to talk about it? I mean, we probably should. Do the talk thing.
[That's what you normally do in these situations, right? That would probably a thing you should do after, admittedly, the world's most pathetic scalpel vs. knife fight.]
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[ He doesn't want to lose what friends he has. ]
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[Looks like there's no way around it then.]
It's just a memory. I think? No, I know. I know it's just a memory and it didn't really happen, I don't know why but I know. Is it the same for you?
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But that wasn't you. I mean, even in the memory I knew that wasn't you, which means I doubly know it wasn't you.
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Logically, I know that wasn't me, because I would never threaten you like that, but-
[ He can still feel the cold of the scalpel in his hand, and he can definitely feel the impact of the table crashing into him. ]
Sorry, Flynn.
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[It comes out sudden and rushed.]
I mean, I feel like maybe I could have said or done something differently and then... You had snapped out of it and I feel like maybe I could have prevented you from slipping back under their influence if I had just, I don't know.
[It's stupid because it didn't even happen, not really, but still Flynn feels like he failed Wilson somehow.]
We should have escaped together.
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[ It shouldn't have been his job to operate on people either. ]
It wasn't your fault, Flynn.
[ It was his, for being susceptible enough to whatever brainwashing techniques were being used. ]
At least you got out. [ A pause. ] You did get out, right?
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[Dramatic? Afraid? Busy waving a giant knife around?]
So prickly? You could have come with me.
[The pause gets an awkward echo.]
You didn't get in trouble because of me, right?
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[ All of that was justified in his opinion. ]
People don't usually try to help the person attempting to hurt them.
[ Unless they have a death wish, which he thinks Flynn doesn't. ]
I- I don't think I did. Somehow, no one caught on to what was going on. [ He's not sure how, because they were doing things that should have drawn a lot of attention. ]
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And you didn't want to hurt me, that's... that's different.
[A pause.]
We really need to stop getting into these situations.
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[ He's just going to pause too. ]
Maybe that pinky swear wasn't the best idea if this is what it led to.
[ Another pause, longer this time. ]
No regrets, though.
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insectcults over the years and pulls a face.] They really don't.Hey, now don't blame the pinky swear. It did nothing wrong. I think we should still keep it up.
No regrets here either.
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[ And he's going to quietly marvel at Flynn's forgiveness, when he feels it isn't deserved. ]
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Sounds good to me. And the next time the city makes me do something stupid we can call it even.
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[ A pause. ]
Is there anything you need? Medical attention, prescriptions, or specific supplies? I think I owe you after everything that's happened.
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It feels good to have a doctor on speed dial.
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... I mean, I hope I won't have to, not for medical emergency reasons, but if I do I will.
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