You're dead to me! Who cares if I kill you, you're already dead!
[Peter spits it out before he can stop himself, his voice cracking, emotion finally breaking through.
It's out now, so there's no point in trying not to spill it.]
I can't...keep doing this. I can't.
[He gently rubs the bridge of his probably-broken-again nose. Ouch. Bad idea.]
I look at you, and I see someone who's dead. Walking around for five minutes, just waiting to drop.
[Peter thought about moments with his friends--lost to the ages. Rocket and him and Groot flying through the air in an aero rig. Almost kissing Gamora, as she danced to Fooled around and Fell in Love, Elvin Bishop, 1975. Laughing with Drax. Making fun of Stephen's sorceryness and holding a are-space-pirates-or-wizards cooler vote on the network. Telling Flynn about the wonderful horrors of Ravager life. Flynn saving him from his hallucinations, keeping him grounded.]
I hate this. [His voice broke.] I can't even kill myself to stop this, I'll just come back. I've lost everyone, I've lost you, and I'm going to lose myself. It'll be 20,000 years later and there'll be nothing left of me.
CW: Suicidal ideations, existential horror
[Peter spits it out before he can stop himself, his voice cracking, emotion finally breaking through.
It's out now, so there's no point in trying not to spill it.]
I can't...keep doing this. I can't.
[He gently rubs the bridge of his probably-broken-again nose. Ouch. Bad idea.]
I look at you, and I see someone who's dead. Walking around for five minutes, just waiting to drop.
[Peter thought about moments with his friends--lost to the ages. Rocket and him and Groot flying through the air in an aero rig. Almost kissing Gamora, as she danced to Fooled around and Fell in Love, Elvin Bishop, 1975. Laughing with Drax. Making fun of Stephen's sorceryness and holding a are-space-pirates-or-wizards cooler vote on the network. Telling Flynn about the wonderful horrors of Ravager life. Flynn saving him from his hallucinations, keeping him grounded.]
I hate this. [His voice broke.] I can't even kill myself to stop this, I'll just come back. I've lost everyone, I've lost you, and I'm going to lose myself. It'll be 20,000 years later and there'll be nothing left of me.